Back to Nerd mode

Life will be the death of me, I swear. This semester is gonna serve me well but it's okay because I'm so ready to prove everyone wrong. I can do this.
Only these things are in my way...
5 credit internship
four classes which luckly are very interesting (modern dance class, video production, Social problem with Boltan DUH, and creative non-fiction.)
Work
and somewhere in between my social life, sleep, meals, showering, getting ready, working out and homework.
No worries I got this.


SIGHHHHH.

First fortune of the Year

ay ay.

2011. BEND OVER. Get ready to get owned.
This years resolutions
1. strive to be a happier and a more optimistic person. This means the following.

• Stop living my life through the past. Meaning stop thinking of all the what if's and what could have been but grow and learn from the past as well as accept what is done is done nothing I can do now to change it.
  
• Stop living my life with anxiety or more like stop living in fear. If you didn't know by now I fear life more than death--but more than anything I fear myself as strange as that sounds.
• Stop feeling sorry for myself. It gets me no where.

2. Learn to accept who I am as well as where I come from and my past. This means I will try NOT to belittle myself anymore. I have to learn to love myself for who I am not who I WISH I COULD BE or who anyone wishes they could see me be.

3. Push myself. OR as I always say finish what you started. It is time I follow up with what I say.

4. Don't let my insecurities get in the way of meeting new people.

5. Save money. MEANING. No more shopping. But more realistically speaking I am limiting myself to one thing a month (new) and thrifted (20 dollar limit). (this one is going to be tough).

6. and lastly as probably every women in the U.S. loose weight. My goals is 10-15 pounds. And this year I am fo REAL. Come Summer time I want to finally be comfortable in my own skin and walk around in a two piece. FACT I HAVE NEVER worn a two piece. SHIT SON.

Well there ya go. There are my sorta but kinda unrealistic resolutions.
here are others which I should also mention be kinder to others, help the needy, perhaps go to church, learn to trust people blah b-fucking blah.



oh and I got a haircut. FUCK, I hate it. oops so much for being optimistic.