Oh Hai!



Monday, August 29, 2011

I am a previous chapter in your book that you will reread once or twice.


but you forget books have alternate starts and ends. The reader takes it as it will.

i don't think publishers like that...

but you forgot

its not about the publisher

its about the readers reaction

and what they take from it

the publisher has no control

She's lost it all

Then why does she keep coming back?

because that's all she ever knows

its the book that has been read the most

the most familiar

line from line

it's her favorite book

that's why she keeps coming back because it's the only book worth a fuck to know line per line

that's why

the book that even in death its lines will float like empty silhouettes


How is this true if she has no interest in the story?


The writer can only take so much. Sometimes books become to much to handle. So you put it down for a bit. It could take a while to pick up again but when it does it will pick up wherever it left off and the story will go on.


The question is when will she pick it up and realize it's new again?

The reader nor writer never likes new. It likes old and the familiar. When she realizes this only then will she be able to pick up again and see the lines in a new light... only then. Right now is not the time.

You know why she puts it down? Because she can not bear to turn the page to unfamiliar ground. So she ends it in a familiar place and hopes for the best--so the book never loses it's meaning.

If the book is worth it maybe it will read itself and will no longer need the writer nor reader... but itself to go forth.

I hope this for you.

You've lived so brightly You've altered everything


I really have. I really have outdone myself this time. I really have.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Check it out


I'm still alive and have lost control.

Now is this a good or bad thing? I haven't really decided yet. For once I am just being young, dumb, and carefree I owe to myself after all. For once I am finally not giving two fucks and for once I am going to do me.

It's summer after all. Suck it.