So sick.

It took me weeks to find this song and I finally did. Yay.


I love music like this, it's genre is so obscure that there is no real label other than calling it experimental. Pretty awesome if you ask me.

Punks not dead

Actually it is. When GG Allin died so did rock and roll and everything "bad ass" with him to hell.
But maybe I am wrong, I have never explored this "genre" of music and am slightly surprised I am so intrigued by punk and hardcore. I am only sad that it took me this long to finally give in. Now I just feel like a poser.
But honestly I had always thought about being "punk" or wishing to be part of that scene. The whole concept of being covered in patches, leather, studs, and hair dye intrigues me. But look at me. There is no way I could turn around now from "indie" to "hardcore" as much as I wish I could. The punks would eat me alive.
Anyways my whole fascination with GG Allin started a while ago but I finally got around reading up some information on him and boy was he ill... but although his music is probably the most offensive music you will ever come across triggering issues such as prostitution, drugs, alcohol, racism etc. GG Allin just didn't give a fuck, in his words he would probably tell every hater out there "Bite it you Scum, here I cum." And well I have to give it to him.

May he rage in hell.

Just do it

Can't decide if I want to chop it all off or not.
Pros
Showering every other day versus every day
easier to manage
Less static in my hair
edgier than what I currently have
CHANGE

Cons
1. I will look the part of my bisexual-(ness?)/ borderline lesbian. I don't know if this is a good or bad thing. Meh I don't give a damn, at least not anymore. In high school though I was very insecure with myself and hated when people called me a lesbian (which by the way I am not because I like men too.) Anyways at the time I hated it, especially since at my very conservative and catholic affiliated high school being gay and lesbian was defiantly a taboo and kept swept under the table.

2. I already look like a little boy...
3. I really do love having long hair and will miss it.

But it's time for a change my long hair is pissing me off. Winter does it no justice.

Primary colors

wearing this shirt backwards is the best idea I had today. (the bows are meant to be worn in the back but I said the hell with that I am going to wear it in the front because well I haven't seen anyone wear it that way).






Current status of thesis zero pages done, at least I did read through all my sources. KILL ME.
Goal tonight do two pages AT least. I will update at 1 am to see where I am at.

p.s.
I am wearing urban renewal shirt $5
Skirt from F21 which was free cause the cashier for some reason didn't end up charging me. Good job guys!
belt thrifted $1
stalkings from f21 $5
My favorite Converse shoes

And of course song of the day

Man I am in such a dancing mood latley, but no this thesis has got me planted in front of this damn computer and it was such a nice day to top it off. At least I went out yesterday to Third Edition again for the millionth time, oh my gawd! gasp! I know a bro bar! but at least no one from MU ever goes there so it's a-okay! And well the bro's aren't annoying assholes like the one's at Mcfadden's.
Anyways hopefully I convince my friend to go to Madhatter and Wonderland Ballroom next because I am tired of bro's and Hoes and am dying to thrash with the cool kids to some nasty beats none of that Kanye West and Pussy Cat Dolls Crap.

Lets dim the lights and melt into one another

IMAGINE.

Making sweet love to this. I know I am sappy ms sap sap over here, But what can I say I am a softie for songs like these. I live for music like this. Honestly music is the best gift to humankind. Honestly if someone were to ask me would you rather go blind or death I'd probably say blind because I'd be damn if I couldn't feel those vibrations that hit me at the very core of my existence, my fucking soul it weeps for this kind of music!

But seriously. that voice! that soothing and sexy voice-- is so enticing it clamps at my skin, my bones, my fucking soul. Gawd sing me to sleep ever so tenderly, this is so beautiful I wanna cry. Now if anyone dare say anything less than this song I'd think they'd be missing half a brain. How can you NOT love this?

I love finding gems like this.

Thursday's song of the day

I love finding internet gold. This song is pretty great. Although I do not like Radiohead all that much- OH MY GAWD, *gasp* yes. I mean I do like some songs here and there. But honestly I can't say I am a fan--well because that would make me a punk bitch poser--of course. But what I can say is I do respect others who do enjoy them and Thom Yorke. Anyways what I am getting at is this song reminds me alot of Radiohead. I do enjoy this. Alot.

And Here is my all time favorite song from Radiohead. Of course. If you know me well enough this song is so typical of me to "like." Dark, mysterious, and somewhat depressing. But whatever I say it's beautiful.

good gawd

Life is stressing me out. But recap of the past few weeks school. work. school. work. Repeat x 10 divide that by 2= the death of me. gawd.
Fortunately I squeezed in some time for Rachel's going away banger. Sadness that every cool person I met eventually ends up leaving. Why do I bother. ugh.



(My friend Yasmin loves pictures.)

Anyways sorry I have been very MIA lately. My lack of motivation and energy has not only affected my blogging but also my whole personal appearance. No make up. No dresses or skirts. I know! I'm slackin' but hopefully tomorrow I will finally look like my old self and have an outfit update? maybe. Meh.